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Aug 25th 2020!⃝I first heard this song back in January 1994 when my twenty-three year old son was missing for two months. We left Oregon and went to look everywhere for him near Vail, Colorado where he'd been living at the time. He had been at a bar and left to walk home when he disappeared. I had psychics tell me he was alive but couldn't reach me. The words "Mama, mama, mama why am I so alone, 'cause I can't go outside I'm scared I might not make it home" felt like he was calling out to me for help. Then the lines "Well I'm alive, I'm alive but I'm sinking in" were when he was dying in the snow and couldn't get up from where he fell off the side of a highway embankment and "I belong anywhere but in between" made me think he was gone but not settled into it yet. His body was found by a fisherman in the Spring, frozen to death, and the words "When I think of heaven, deliver me in a black winged bird, I think of dying, lay me down in a field of flame and heather" brought back the words of the psychics who told me he'd be found when the flowers bloomed. This is only my personal interpretation and probably nothing to do with the real meaning. The song still makes me cry every time I hear it twenty-six+ years later.
